Ready to Run

And I had it all, I had him right there where I wanted him.
She came along, got him alone, and let’s hear the applause.
She took him faster than you can say sabotage.

I never saw it coming, wouldn’t have suspected it.
I underestimated just who I was dealing with.
She had to know the pain was beating on me like a drum.
She underestimated just who she was stealing from.

She’s not a saint, and she’s not what you think.
She’s an actress, whoa
She’s better known for the things that she does
On the mattress, whoa.

Soon she’s gonna find stealing other people’s toys
On the playground won’t make you many friends
She should keep in mind, she should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better than revenge, ha.

Yes, I am still hurt and yes, I will be upset about this for a long time to come. But, I’m forgiving you. Even though you’re not apologizing, I’m already over it. I don’t want to hold grudges. I want to be happy. And all this anger is doing is making me bitter. No, I do not trust you, yes, I will get over this. But, don’t expect me to forget what you did..

It always sucks when you put yourself out there for someone who says that they’re “different than all the rest.” But, it really sucks when you get played and backstabbed at the same time. Of all the fish in the sea, you had to go for mine? Okay, that’s fine by me. If that’s how you want this to be then let the games begin because honey, you will lose. Go after the one person that means the most to me, alright, I’ll go after yours. 

I graduate high school in 39 days. This leaves me with two options. Option one, stress out over my grades, lose sleep to stay up and study, get an A in all my classes, not have to take my finals the day before graduation. Option two, not study, get plenty of rest, have fun partying up my last few days with my high school friends before we all go our separate ways, get C’s in all my classes, still pass, take the finally exam the day before graduation without studying, graduate high school with some great memories. 

The choice is clear. I’m done studying for the rest of the year. Woops. No care, senior year. Stress free.

the next six weekends are looking PRIME, all leading up to one of the biggest days in my young, little life. graduationnnn.

• 7 days until I see my two best friends
• 13 days until my brother’s sweet sixteen rave
• 20 days until the sugarland concert
• 26 days until protocol 
• 34 days until my graduation party extravaganza 
• 39 days until GRADUATIONNN

let’s do this. six weeks, that’s it. we’re so close. 

sidereus:

School free for 16 days yeahhhhhh

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4MnpzG5Sqc

Take 30 minutes of your day and watch this video. I promise it is worth it.

So, I’ve had this quadricep injury from soccer that basically means I am in extreme pain every time I try to kick the ball or sprint. I’ve tried every method possible to fix it and nothing is working. All it needs is time. So, tonight, for the first night in two weeks, we didn’t have soccer practice so I got to go to the gym and run. And let me tell you, there is no better feeling than running on that treadmill again, and every time I kicked the speed or incline up one more notch and my legs didn’t hurt or give out I was thrilled. It was amazing. Like, a very powerful moment. I was able to run for thirty minutes straight, quickly, at a high incline, with absolutely no pain. I am recovering and I am so thankful. Baby steps, I’ll get there.

How is it even possible to love someone and hate someone this much at the exact same time?

Today, I finally reached my breaking point. I am done with everyone. I can’t even look at my best friend because when I do all I can do is cry and scream out “I hate you!” The only person who held every piece of me together, the one boy who protected me and cared for me and never let me down and then suddenly we’re done. How can you even expect me to forgive you and be your friend when I can’t even breathe when I see you? And on top of that every student and teacher at my school shares the same viewpoint as myself concerning spring break and graduation, which is “Get me the fuck out of this building because I literally hate all of you so much.” Like I said, done.